Sunday, September 27, 2009

Puasa 6 di bulan Syawal

مَنْ صَامَ رَمَضَانَ ثُمَّ أَتْبَعَهُ سِتًّا مِنْ شَوَّالٍ كَانَ كَصِيَامِ الدَّهْرِ
“Barang siapa yang berpuasa Ramadhan kemudian berpuasa enam hari di bulan Syawal, maka dia berpuasa seperti setahun penuh.” (HR. Muslim)

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

the gift of 'keinsafan'

" dia cakap nak datang dgn 2 orang abang..xpe, ke?"

i scribble a note on my ever-messy persala note book.. calculating the budget in my head. that early morning, instead of going to lab, i went to SKK (3). doing last minutes job for our majlis berbuka puasa with anak2 yatim that will take place that evening kat pusat islam, usm.

" bdk ni mmg susah.. mak dia miskin, ayah dia tinggalkn dia. pastu dia xleh jalan, sbb tu abg dia kene dtg sekali".. pk hem of SKK (3) cont explaining. i gave her a smile and said it shud be ok. we already allocate xtra food for the event.

aft thanking ph hem, we (me and another friend) follow ustazah na (forgot her name) to the class.. chomey je tgk bdk2 kecik tgh belajar. went from class to class, amik the orphans' cloth measurement. we are really thankful, last2 minutes, ramai yg donate for the events. few lecturers donate RM500 each! (smg Allah murahkan rezeki those people).. with that, we managed to buy baju raya for all those orphans from a poor family.

aft touring few blocks, we arrived kat year 1 nyer class.. i saw a boy sitting 'on' the table. the 1st thing yg terlintas is "ish, nakal sungguh!".. but after a few moment, i realized.. that is the OKU boy who cant walk n will come wih his 2 brothers tonight. he gave me a curious smile when i enter the class.. n my heart does a funny jolt when looking at his small, very innocent face.. he cant sit on the chair while learning, as his lower body is small, making the table too high for him to write. but i'm impress, looking at his determination to study.. n impress by how the other classmates treat him. in other classes, the tables were arranged two by two.. but they dekatkan 6 tables kat depan, so it's easier for him to move.

we didnt talk much, as i dont have enough time. but i found myself looking forward to meet him that evening.

like any other time when handling an event, stress often builds up time2 last minute. penat, tension, penat lagi.. tambah2 dgn puasa.. ke sana ke mari settlekan the goody bag, duit raya, mc tiba2 xleh jd mc, perasmi wat hal, vip xdpt nk contact utk confirmkn kehadiran.. etc etc.... but, all the stress + penat yg hampir2 wat awe nangis, really vanish when i saw how excited those children when they received their goody bags with baju-kuih-and duit raya. and i know, people with 'hearts' will be moved by the sights of the 2 siblings- the OKU boy, being carried by his brother, receiving the goody bags...

the prog teaches me to be grateful.. be grateful of the wellness of my body, and being thankful for the family that i have, and being thankful diatas kesenangan hidup yg dikurniakan..

in the middle of that 'perasaan terharu'.. i was nearly brought into tears again.. suddenly being approached by a pakcik. saying that he's late, just arrived, so his son doesnt make it masa penyampaian sumbangan raya. i rushed n searched for goody bag with his son's name. the moment when i gave him the goody bag only i realized that pakcik's condition. he smiles and thank me, receiving the bag with his hardly-can-be-moved hands, and limping away.. his right leg cant move well.. i stand there looking at him until he was out of my sight.. and feeling very thankful that at least, i did smtg for these people.. i remember what the vice president told me when i question why didnt we focus on the orphans kat umah anak2 yatim, n she told me that, people usually see orphanges houses, a lot of people donate (during ramadhan) to umah anak2 yatim, but not these children whose still have a mum or dad, and from a very poor family..

nway.. i pray that Allah will give them strength to face this test of life. and i pray that the people out there will do their parts in helping the needy ones. i'm still thinking what else we can do to help them.. (planning to adopt that OKU boy.. huhu... wonder whether my husband will agree.. )

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Malam Lailatul Qadar

Sesungguhnya Kami telah menurunkan (Al-Quran) ini pada Malam Lailatul-Qadar, Dan apa jalannya engkau dapat mengetahui apa dia kebesaran Malam Lailatul-Qadar itu? Malam Lailatul-Qadar lebih baik daripada seribu bulan [97:1-3]

Narrated Abu Salama:
I asked Abu Sa'id, and he was a friend of mine, (about the Night of Qadr) and he said, "We practiced Itikaf (seclusion in the mosque) in the middle third of the month of Ramadan with the Prophet . In the morning of the 20th of Ramadan, the Prophet came and addressed us and said, 'I was informed of (the date of the Night of Qadr) but I was caused to forget it; so search for it in the odd nights of the last ten nights of the month of Ramadan. (In the dream) I saw myself prostrating in mud and water (as a sign). So, whoever was in l'tikaf with me should return to it with me (for another 10-day's period)', and we returned. At that time there was no sign of clouds in the sky but suddenly a cloud came and it rained till rain-water started leaking through the roof of the mosque which was made of date-palm leaf stalks. Then the prayer was established and I saw Allah's Apostle prostrating in mud and water and I saw the traces of mud on his forehead." [HR Bukhari]
*fastabiqul khairat.. 'berlumba-lumbalah kamu membuat kebaikan'...

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

once a friend.. forever a friend (?)

it’s funny how our emotions managed to sway easily. It’s like suddenly you feel like crying for the simplest absurd reasons. One moment you are OK, and the other moment you feel like everything is wrong.. (yes.. i’m in that not soo wonderful emo state.. urghh... ) *keep reminding myself that ‘ingat Allah hati jadi tenang’..

today i ‘was reminded’ about one of my best friends in high school (we are the trio oh!-so-glamour-top-students-in-everything <-- it was then though).. i always respect those girl friends that stick together comes tide or high-water, because it seems that friendship is something that very hard to preserve.. you hold them too tight, it will suffocate them, but if loose, they will think that you dont care. Dont get me wrong, i have many wonderful girl friends that i love and care for (and i know they love me *heh heh).. but being in this emo-state (giving excuse to myself), those minority type of friends always manage to make me cry to sleep. It’s something that you just cant understand; there’s nothing wrong between both of you, you sms each other, you email each other, you meet during holidays, then suddenly.. *vanish* just like that. Once in a while, u receive ‘oh, sorry, i’m too busy’ email n sms as a reply.. *sigh... its a painful feeling, really, when a friend emit those ‘tak nak kawan dah’ sign.. uh uh, being emo is not good.. but to my dear friend, even if you are ‘too busy’, you should at least congratulate your ‘once-you-claimed-your-bestfriend’s wedding (altho its been a month)..
nway, sorry for the merepek entry.. it’s just that i need to write everything down to feel better -supaya my zauj x perlu berdepan with awe yg emo (eventho on phone)... huhu..-. trying my best to show the good side of me, as adviced by Asma’ binti Kharijah r.a when her daughter is about to get married: “Engkau akan keluar dari kehidupan yang mana engkau membesar didalamnya. Engkau akan pergi ke tempat tidur, di mana kami tidak mengenalinya dan teman yang belum tentu menyayangimu. Jadilah kamu seperti bumi bagi suamimu, maka ia menjadi langit bagimu. Jadilah kamu seperti tanah yang datar baginya, maka ia akan menjadi tiang bagimu. Jadilah kamu di hadapannya seperti budah perempuan, maka ia akan menjadi seorang hamba bagimu. Janganlah kamu menutupi diri darinya, akibatnya ia bisa melemparmu. Jangan pula kamu menjauhinya yang bisa mengakibatkan ia melupakanmu. Jika ia mendekat kepadamu, maka kamu harus lebih mengakrabinya. Jika ia menjauh, maka menjauhilah ia dengan baik. Janganlah kami menilainya kecuali dalam hal-hal yang baik saja. Dan janganlah kamu mendengarkannya kecuali yang baik, dan janganla ia melihat kecuali yang indah pada dirimu.”

hoho.... berjaya sway from the topic (like always)..

okies.. feeling better. so back to work! BERUSAHA!!