Monday, April 26, 2010

Ujian yg pelbagai

my research is going smoothly so far.. praises to The Almighty..

skrg dh tgh preparation for final sampling. rabu akan pergi survey tempat kt Gunong Stong, Jeli (3hours drvive from here). nk kene angkut segala bagai alat2, penat isi borang nk kuarkn alat dr school. aft sampling boleh focus kt my biochemical analysis. pagi td dh dapat email yg company akan send one of the kits tomorrow. alhamdulillah.

i am being very positive on everything. being optimistic. i'm working hard. i study hard. i woke up early for qiam. i recite qur'an. i perform my solat hajat. i recite yassin after subuh utk mudahkan urusan for that day. as smooth as my study, i'm hoping the best for my family. i plan where to stay if my family grew. i plan what to do if in God's willing i managed to convert to phd. no matter how i hate planning b4, i did plan thoroughly for my near future. i'm being optimistic~ until i had to break my fast today. i got my period. i dont want to accept it, but i got my period. i wont be able to use my upt kit.

i told myself that u cant hv anything you want. it won't be that easy. i told myself you cant be mad. who u want to be mad to? jgn berperangai mcm org yg tak beriman. but here i am, blaming everything in this life..

blaming everything that can be blamed.

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