Mama is away, 'holidaying' with abah =).. tried to call, but end up sending sms wishing hepi bday n told her I love her. Comparing myself with others.. i'm not a direct type. some people can say what they think directly, but for me, to utter words that convey feelings, and sometimes my thoughts, can be soo hard. thats why i turn to writing; as sometimes it's frustrated not being able to say what u r thinking.
there r times that i know i made my mum sad, or mad at me.. there are times that i know i shud apologize. but tiap kali pun, all the words just linger in my head. thats why terasa sgt when i listen to Unic's 'Lafaz Yang Tersimpan'.. really2 'sukar menyusun bicara n meluahkan sayang'. huhu...
for me, bila dh besar2 ni, i know that i need to do something about it. rather than pendamkan n 'wat bodo' when i know i'd kecikkan ati org, or when i really need to say i care about people, i turn to writing it all down. sending sms, putting notes on table or any place that it's easy to find, sending emails, and sending cards =) it's a good feeling when u know that people knew what exactly you r feeling or thinking, rather than being ambigous and creating misunderstanding.. =)
having a chat with my 'iffah yesterday (eba n iman).. rupa2nya dh lama i didnt ask for their news.. sowiiii!!! u guys are always in my mind, cuma x berkesempatan n duk diam2 n tegur your ym/called. 'iffah is always my anak2 yg chomel =)
there's this hadith that i read somewhere about when you love someone, say it.. so, ape lagi? tell the person that u care about them =)
** uh uh.. i'm having headache due to this petroleum ether that fills the air in the lab - tgh wat fat extraction.