Ujian yg pelbagai

my research is going smoothly so far.. praises to The Almighty..

skrg dh tgh preparation for final sampling. rabu akan pergi survey tempat kt Gunong Stong, Jeli (3hours drvive from here). nk kene angkut segala bagai alat2, penat isi borang nk kuarkn alat dr school. aft sampling boleh focus kt my biochemical analysis. pagi td dh dapat email yg company akan send one of the kits tomorrow. alhamdulillah.

i am being very positive on everything. being optimistic. i'm working hard. i study hard. i woke up early for qiam. i recite qur'an. i perform my solat hajat. i recite yassin after subuh utk mudahkan urusan for that day. as smooth as my study, i'm hoping the best for my family. i plan where to stay if my family grew. i plan what to do if in God's willing i managed to convert to phd. no matter how i hate planning b4, i did plan thoroughly for my near future. i'm being optimistic~ until i had to break my fast today. i got my period. i dont want to accept it, but i got my period. i wont be able to use my upt kit.

i told myself that u cant hv anything you want. it won't be that easy. i told myself you cant be mad. who u want to be mad to? jgn berperangai mcm org yg tak beriman. but here i am, blaming everything in this life..

blaming everything that can be blamed.

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Saya pening

Hari ni saya pening n sakit kepala..

sistem USM health campus ni memang expert bab kasi org headache. my 2nd sampling this wiken. alhamdulillah, cukup lg duit. but, kalau kira2, mmg duit yg ada kt tangan mmg bakal habis dgn hebatnyer wiken nih. tiap2 kali sampling habis 3-4ribu. nx week dh nk ke Jeli. mmg confirm it will cost more that mere 4k. sbb jauh, nk kene book homestay for the team, duit minyak lagi.. rasa2nya dh lbh 3 minggu send tuntutan honororium, yesterday called bendahari, dia ckp, that form baru samp, so need another 14days to process. sabooo je laa..

then tepon k'den, petty cash yg apply last 2 weeks x sampai pn lagi. *dush..

i know i should apply samb kt otago je. confirm x pening ngan all this management problems. *haih.. nway, nothing is easy, yet nothing is impossible also.. BERUSAHA!

..data collection..

Alhamdulillah.. all praises to The Almighty, for He is the one who allows things to be done..

I'm getting ready for my 2nd data collection, this time, 'calmly' :). the 1st one promised a lot of experiences to gain. and it really thought me a lot of things indeed. i'm really thankful that i'm not really as 'alone' as i thought i was during preparation for the sampling. preparing for the study can be really stressful, but believing that by the end of the day everything will be OK gave the strength to leap over every hurdles.

1st data collection was at KB. the nearest place to USM. a total 58 subjects turned up (min sampling was 50) (actually i was worried if to many people came, as we dont really hv enough money for honororium.. huhu)..

i'm really impressed by how helpful and supportive all those tok penggawa n penghulu2 kampung. they were the ones gathering the makcik2 for my research and even mengangkut the subjects to the sampling site (thank you!).

the morning had been hectic, so dont really hv time to snap pictures. took the pic aft finished half of the data collection. even the blood collection team hd already finished their job! huhu..

around the 1st sampling

I'm thankful that He had surrounded me with wonderful people.. gathering early in the morning during weekend, and spent the whole morning trying to be patients with the makcik2 who sometimes didnt really know how to follow the order and didnt understand what we were asking. huhu..

1 down, had two more data collection to be done.. after that can focus on my analysis.

Moga dipermudahkan.. insyaAllah..

Bees..

why did people said 'as busy as bees'? mmg lebah selalu sibuk, deh?

'Sila datang office saya pukul 830, saya ada kije lain nak buat'.. received sms from penggawa daerah sering at 710am. dashed from my bed, shower, iron my clothes, drank a cup of vico.. and by 8am, already in the car.

it took me quite sometimes to search for the office. but as one of my anak usrah lived in that area, i managed to 'tidak mensesatkan diri'.. hehe.. (a pat on my back ^^ ).. discussed about my research.. Alhamdulillah, the penggawa was indeed very helpful. will be having a meeting with all tok penghulu and tok imam next week. hopefully by the end of the following week, i can have all my data collections done for this district. planning to go to pasir puteh as my nx destination.

by 940, already in usm. blm sempat smp lab, dr. dah msg 'jumpa skrg'.. so, campak my bag at the lab, and went to her room, where both of my supervisors were already waiting. reporting my progress, i managed to put xtra task on my shoulder when i agree to give oral presentation for the conference in Bangkok.. n by end of that meeting, i have my schedule full for the nx 2 months (BERUSAHALAH!!)

my checklist for today and tomorrow (wednesday off to KL for NSM conference):

- send abstract
- apply for advance in honororium (details of expenditure)
- register for 5th Congress of Dietetic conference : open PO
- PO for Statistical course
- meet bendahari for things to do in TT transfer to S'pore (ELISA kit)
- search for dietitians n nutritionist available this 10th april.
- letter to apply for staff nurse in blood collection

*** now i know, that being a master student, we learnt to become a kerani also.. with all this surat-menyurat yg perlu dibuat..

"verily, for every difficulties, there is relief" [94:6]

Congratulations!

SPM resuts kuar arini..
my younger brother got 8A+ (BI,SJ,PI,MM,FZ,KI,AC,MT), 1B+ (BM), 1B (EST)..
we target a straight As, but, you work hard and already tried your best, so redha with the result. Sometimes things doesn't turn out the way we thought it should, but as long as we know that we had done the very best, the result doesnt matter.. Congratulations again, abah, mama, and all of us are proud of you.. your journey into the real life had just begun..

** x tau yg result SPM dh tukar sistem. grading ikot uni nyer style (A+, A-, A)

my bro n I (teman kakak jln pon bw buku study ;) )

my 1st train journey to Segamat =)

1030.. a glance at my watch showed that the train was delayed for more than a quarter of hour. Waiting for my hubby to send me off, I was worried about the journey back to KB fr segamat. Fr KB, I booked a bed (or what-eva-it-is-called). It was a good trip. Having the bed all for myself, and don’t need to ‘beramah-mesra’ with any other passengers (not because I’m anti-social, but I had a busy day, and rest-to-the fullest during the journey had became my motto :p). The ‘bed-seating’ was sold out. So, I bought the most-‘expensive’ seat (which is a second class :( … I was nagging for a 1^st class ticket.. but apparently there’s NO 1^st class ticket for KB-S’pore train). (price KB-Segamat: RM47 lower bed, RM41 upper bed, RM37 2^nd class seat, I’m not sure bout the 3^rd class one.. I think its pretty cheap).

i googled this image

Saying goodbye to my beloved husband (without hugs n kisses- no PDA ;p), I board the train to endure my 10 hours journey (min) ON A SEAT for the whole night, with the lights turned on the whole night (unlike buses, they didn’t switch off the light). The seat besides me was empty (Alhamdulillah..).. I was arranging my stuff, and started reading the novel I bought when I realized someone was observing me. I ignored him for a moment before asking whether his seat is beside me (which I pray not). I can always tell if someone is hitting on me, and it’s really annoying. Saying something like there’s prob with his seat (which seems really unlikely), and asking if I mind if he seats beside me (of course laa I mind, bodo laa mamat nih ß dlm hati), I said ‘cannot’ with a cold face.. trying to ignore the fact that someone was STANDING beside my seat in a MOVING train, I pretended to be reading. But it’s getting really uncomfortable when he keeps trying to start a conversation. My final resort was texting my husband ‘call me ASAP’.. apologizing, I answered my hubby’s call, facing the opposite way. All praise to Him, that guy went away when the train conductor came to check for ticket. I was feeling nervous the whole journey, in case he came again.

Moral of the story, book early, and book for a bed instead of seat. It can be a really enjoyable journey. When u are bored, you can always walk around, from coach to coach. And there’s even a cafeteria =) there are private room in the train to KL, but none for this one. Next time I want to try that private room (would cost me around 200 maybe).. but if and only if i got ample time (50 min on flight versus 12hours on train.. hoho)..

I need to say this, to all the guys out there, jadilah manusia berguna.. there are too many guys yg tak jadi ‘orang’ dah. Value your life. Stop doing stupid things (like hitting on people that is obviously trying to ignore you).

when family became stranger

(*** this entry does not related to my nuclear family..)

n.. when strangers became family..

i'm really pissed (pardon my word).. i mean, no matter what conflicts came btw the adults, why dragged urself into it? people always (n really mean ALWAYS) talk bad things about others when the other party dont get into good terms with them.. but, helloooo... if u r not satisfied with others, keep it to urself, dont drag other people to join u in 'boycotting' or 'hating' that person .. dh laa dosa benci kt org satu, nk tambah2 lg dosa ngumpat+suruh org lain benci kt org jugak...

there there.. istighfar.. ni kes 'luka lama berdarah kembali' la ni.. huhu... conflicts will always happen, but u learn to let it go, and put it behind.. but some people just want to live with it. making it bigger and bigger each day. n by each moment, the 'story' will worsen.. n i really dont get it, why some people cant live without gossiping.. its like their 'food of the soul' is talking bad about others..

i'm not a very good person. of that i already know.. i tend to do wierd stuff.. i rather 'run' compared to 'walk', i hang out with my students as if they are my buddy, i talk loudly, i cry in public when i lose my temper, i throw things at people when i'm mad.. etc etc.. but who are you to tell the public that u dont like me.. (i'm also not fond of your personality, but i dont go around telling bad things about you,n i treat you really well in public.. )..

nway, thats the old story.. but, i'm really hurt by that. if i dont know better; but i knew that memutuskn silaturrahim is a great sin, i really gonna ignore the person.. (may Allah forgive us all).. people said, blood is thicker than water, so what? everyone in the world has the same red blood cells ( altho there r diff types of rbc).

uh uh.. its me being emo again... i think its time to cook smtg.. pie or tart shud be good.. mybe i'll make custard or egg tart, popia will be good also.. (urghh... i need to exercise more.. )

**feeling better**

..home sweet home..

internet sgt slow.. sgt sgt tension dgn internet nih..

hari nih gi beli stem hasil.. then round bandar dgn hebatnya utk cari pejabat hasil.. just to cop that stem hasil.. last2 jumpa kat bandar cukai utama. dh cop 5 x RM10 inggit stem hasil 4 my borang biasiswa NSF. nk kene sign penjamin je. x semua org sanggup nk jd penjamin (i shud hv known.. nway, no hard feeling.. i'll find someone else).. gov letak syarat either mum or dad, xleh dua2 org jd penjamin, kalau x semalam dh blh hntr. altho sgt leceh, i dont regret rejecting biasiswa USM, bcoz if not i wont be home now.. hehe.. kalau amik biasiswa USM, xleh cuti byk2.. heh heh..

lunch menu: kari ikan, ikan goreng, stir fry taugeh + saleri., and also kerang rebus cicah air asam.. my brother requested kari ikan (dia tgh nk belajar masak.. persediaan utk hidup brdikari kt uni)

tea time: aft battling within myself (karipap @ donut @ popia).. i end up buying mauripan. so the winner is donut. also want to make pau goreng. nnti boleh frozen kn, senang cik dib nk bawak bekal gi sekolah.

okay.. dh tgh hari.. kain still tgh bilas.. nk masak, jemur kain, then boleh baca journal jap b4 wat donut..

** counting HIS blessings.. family+love+health+faith.. alhamdulillah..