when family became stranger

(*** this entry does not related to my nuclear family..)

n.. when strangers became family..

i'm really pissed (pardon my word).. i mean, no matter what conflicts came btw the adults, why dragged urself into it? people always (n really mean ALWAYS) talk bad things about others when the other party dont get into good terms with them.. but, helloooo... if u r not satisfied with others, keep it to urself, dont drag other people to join u in 'boycotting' or 'hating' that person .. dh laa dosa benci kt org satu, nk tambah2 lg dosa ngumpat+suruh org lain benci kt org jugak...

there there.. istighfar.. ni kes 'luka lama berdarah kembali' la ni.. huhu... conflicts will always happen, but u learn to let it go, and put it behind.. but some people just want to live with it. making it bigger and bigger each day. n by each moment, the 'story' will worsen.. n i really dont get it, why some people cant live without gossiping.. its like their 'food of the soul' is talking bad about others..

i'm not a very good person. of that i already know.. i tend to do wierd stuff.. i rather 'run' compared to 'walk', i hang out with my students as if they are my buddy, i talk loudly, i cry in public when i lose my temper, i throw things at people when i'm mad.. etc etc.. but who are you to tell the public that u dont like me.. (i'm also not fond of your personality, but i dont go around telling bad things about you,n i treat you really well in public.. )..

nway, thats the old story.. but, i'm really hurt by that. if i dont know better; but i knew that memutuskn silaturrahim is a great sin, i really gonna ignore the person.. (may Allah forgive us all).. people said, blood is thicker than water, so what? everyone in the world has the same red blood cells ( altho there r diff types of rbc).

uh uh.. its me being emo again... i think its time to cook smtg.. pie or tart shud be good.. mybe i'll make custard or egg tart, popia will be good also.. (urghh... i need to exercise more.. )

**feeling better**

..home sweet home..

internet sgt slow.. sgt sgt tension dgn internet nih..

hari nih gi beli stem hasil.. then round bandar dgn hebatnya utk cari pejabat hasil.. just to cop that stem hasil.. last2 jumpa kat bandar cukai utama. dh cop 5 x RM10 inggit stem hasil 4 my borang biasiswa NSF. nk kene sign penjamin je. x semua org sanggup nk jd penjamin (i shud hv known.. nway, no hard feeling.. i'll find someone else).. gov letak syarat either mum or dad, xleh dua2 org jd penjamin, kalau x semalam dh blh hntr. altho sgt leceh, i dont regret rejecting biasiswa USM, bcoz if not i wont be home now.. hehe.. kalau amik biasiswa USM, xleh cuti byk2.. heh heh..

lunch menu: kari ikan, ikan goreng, stir fry taugeh + saleri., and also kerang rebus cicah air asam.. my brother requested kari ikan (dia tgh nk belajar masak.. persediaan utk hidup brdikari kt uni)

tea time: aft battling within myself (karipap @ donut @ popia).. i end up buying mauripan. so the winner is donut. also want to make pau goreng. nnti boleh frozen kn, senang cik dib nk bawak bekal gi sekolah.

okay.. dh tgh hari.. kain still tgh bilas.. nk masak, jemur kain, then boleh baca journal jap b4 wat donut..

** counting HIS blessings.. family+love+health+faith.. alhamdulillah..

i want to eat..

afraid of getting fatter, but lately rasa mcm nk makaaannn je kerje [no i'm not pregnant -yet-]. mybe depression mode kot.. i need someone to tell me what shud i do next for my research.. doktor.. tulunnnn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! need to call of those penggawa.. makcik2 sekalian, tolong laa jadi subject utk research saya, cucuk sikit je, x sakit pon.. huhu....

since kak mona pindah, i havent got the chance (and also money) to buy a new fridge.. (desperately need one!).. sy xleh nk wat milkshake.. (sy rasa mcm nk minum milkshake). n i read how to make lassi (yogurt+milk drinks).. i want to make vanilla lassi!! (dulu penah minum kt kedai arab.. sgt best!! ).. nk wat karipap gak.. (okay.. karipap mmg xyah ada peti.. but i tend to make a whole BUNCH of karipap, n of course laa xdpt habiskn, so kene laa frozen kan the one yg x goreng lg).. same goes with donut.. smlm masa sembang2 ngn kakak kt lab nih, tersebut pasal tart.. so nk makan tat telur (nk kene sejukkn the pastry).. x selera nk mkn yg jual kt kedai (yes, sy mengada2, i prefer to eat smtg that i cooked myself even when it doesnt taste that good).. aih bila boleh balik nih.. nk try resepi tat peach yg tgh duk reka2 dlm kepala since yesterday..



hmm.... rasa2nyer sindrom2 depression mode ialah masak kot, instead of makan. nway, sy berusaha dgn struggle (really struggling) utk tdk menggemokkan diri.. huhu... (kaki terseliuh last time, masa nk panjat palang sits-up - sbb gradient die nearly 45degree.. sit-up yg mencabar fizikal.. so skrg berehat sebentar fr jogging).. ada dietitian baru yg comel kt lab nih, wat kawan joging petang2.. skrg plan nk beli reket tennis (altho sure nnti letih kejar bola je.. hehe)..